Wow. It’s been quite a few months since I’ve written
anything on here. But, I’m happy to say that law school is officially behind
me, and I’ve taken the CA Bar Exam (hopefully, that’s behind me too). To celebrate, I went to Kauai. It was definitely a source of inspiration for this blog in many ways.
Unfortunately, I have a hard time keeping inspiration, so I’m just going to
write since I’ve missed blogging. Please forgive the stream of consciousness
that I so dearly love.
So, as most of you know, while I was wrapping up law school
and studying for the Bar I was somehow able to compartmentalize my life. My
love life was neatly placed in a drawer, and it hasn’t really been touched
since. I think it was the first time in my life I was able to really just push everything else aside. It was probably more out of survival than anything else, though. There were a few random moments of interest, but nothing all that
exciting.
Tangent: Do you ever notice that exes contact you when
you’re just fine and doing your own thing? About twice a year, I’ll get 2-3
randomly contact me all within about a week of each other. So, bizarre. Makes
me want to believe more in vibes or karma or whatever it is you call it.
Anyway, I feel like that part of my life is starting to creep out of
that drawer. The logical side of me wants to put a damn lock on it. Sure, I’ve
finished law school and am so close to starting my career (hopefully). This is
the time I’ve been waiting for. BUT, I’ve move backwards a bit. Since the last
post, I’ve moved back to my parents’ house. I loved living solo, and it’s
really hard for me to accept that I’m 26, have two degrees, and still live with
my parents. I’m so ready to start my life already! Except that whole paying off
a mortgage’s worth of student debt thing. That I can wait for. With that said,
the logical part of me thinks I should continue to evade dating until I’ve
moved out of this damn little town and really begun to live my life.
However, is there really a good time to start something? I read an article on a similar topic
recently – having kids. Is there really a good time have kids? After you finish
school? But, after school, don’t you want to start your career? When is it a
good time to put your career on hold? So, like kids, I don’t think there’s
actually a good time to start dating
in relation to your career. Sure, I’ll have a better idea where I’ll be
settling down when I land that first full-time permanent position. But,
interests change, companies layoff, promotions happen, unexpected opportunities
arise, so there really is no guarantee that a year from now you’ll be settled
in the same place.
Logic aside, I feel
like some Spring lovin’ would be fun. Today I was driving around with the
windows down, the sun beaming on me through the open moon roof, and then Luke
Bryan’s “Drunk on You” comes on.
I just can’t resist being around a man, a five o’clock
shadow, decent arms, and a warm evening. Yum! That song just drives me crazy!
Yep, that would be some pent up frustration. But, hey, with the amount of stress
studying for the Bar gives a person, I’d be surprised if I was the only one.
Alright, well, I better get ready for some bowling. I’m so
ready to let my hair down after all these years of crazy stress! Next time, I’ll
try to tap into that more meaningful inspiration that I seem to have lost.
